Neverending Grind When Everyday is Not Ok

I sometimes worry that I'm slipping into some spiral. Every day I feel a little less in control. Even with all of my experience - I don't know what to do anymore. Where is bottom? I need to stop this. I don't know how to anymore. It's becoming harder and harder to hide it.

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Choices, Empathy, Cruelty. If You Can Fix It – Just Fucking Fix It.

A great big something has changed for me and my husband. It's not a lessening of empathy, but it is certainly a shift. I've lost my patience with petty complaints, or even larger ones where someone has the keys in their pocket to change the situation, yet chooses to pretend they do not. Needless to … Continue reading Choices, Empathy, Cruelty. If You Can Fix It – Just Fucking Fix It.

I Am Not Okay

I'm pretty open about my mental illnesses in general.  Anxiety, panic attacks, depression and PTSD are a part of me that I carry around every single moment of my life.  Even my dreams are invaded by the thousands of terrors and lies my messed up brain throws at me.  What I don't do as often is talk about the details.  I don't talk much, even to those closest to me about exactly what it is, on a real day to day way.